Through quiet tears she asked herself, "Who am I? How did I come to be? Why was I even born? What's wrong with me? Does she love me? Does she think about me? What does she look like? Does she look like me?"
This little girl loved her mom who held her tight and kissed her goodnight but there were so many unanswered questions flooding her aching heart. She wondered why her first mom let her go. She longed to know her too. Longed to be with her. Longed to hear her voice. Longed to tell her Happy Mother's Day.
For so many years this was a day of silent heartache, shame, conflict and even guilt. But this year it is a day to celebrate all of the Mother's Days unspoken. No longer having to wonder. No longer having to question. No longer having to be silent. This year, through tears, I am full of joy for the chance to get to know her, too. To have had the chance to be with her and to hear her voice telling me, I am loved. I am grateful for the privilege of telling both of my mom's Happy Mother's Day and thank you for my life. I am honored to be loved by two beautiful women. I wouldn't be who I am without both of you, and I love you dearly.
If you are someone that was separated from your birth mom and Mother's Day is a hard day I want you to know that it is ok to wonder. To experience pain even in the midst of being loved greatly by others in your life. It is a loss in your life that cannot be made up for by someone else loving you enough. Allow yourself to grieve, but know this: there is nothing "wrong" with you. Never think for one minute that you weren't planned. You were fearfully and wonderfully made. You are loved and you are thought of every day!!!
